The Magic Behind Photographs

Photographs are magical. They have the ability to transport you back in time. To a specific day where something specific happened – good or bad. They hold memories that you can relive whenever. All it takes is one look…

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When I was younger and my littlest brother ceased to exist, my family would always make it a point to come to Scarborough Beach during our annual one-week holiday back in Perth. I remember ignoring the beach completely and running straight for this gigantic playground they had there instead. Going back there this year, I can tell you that this playground was definitely not gigantic in the slightest, which just goes to show that I’m growing up way too fast and that’s not okay. I actually made it to the beach this time though and it was just incredible. This photo I took speaks for itself. Picturesque. It never fails to remind me of my childhood days.

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Bangkok was where my best friend and I had reunited after two years of being apart! It was really, really, really sad that we only got to spend five days with each other, but it’s crazy to look back at how many memories we made during such a short period of time. I guess that’s what best friends are for. Every time I pick up this photo, all of those memories come rushing back as if they happened only yesterday: karaoke sessions at the top of the ferris wheel, melted ice cream at the park, getting sick at the carnival, makeup tutorials, taking horrible polaroids – and regretfully – rejecting popcorn from a cute guy at the movies! I’m never going to find love.. *cue sad music*


Photos taken at Scarborough Beach, Perth and in Bangkok, Thailand
[In response to the Weekly Photo Challenge: half and half & magic]

Wonderful Indonesia

If you don’t already know, I am half Indonesian and I have been living in Jakarta, the capital city of Indonesia, for most of my twenty years on this earth. By reading that you’d think I know everything there is to know about Indonesia. But in all honesty, I don’t. I don’t even speak Bahasa Indonesia fluently – though I know enough of the language to get by. It does make me sad knowing that I will soon be leaving the country without having learnt as much about the local culture as I would have liked. Lesson most definitely learnt.

I live in a very modernised and civilised part of the city, so I don’t often get to witness and experience Jakarta at its realest. Today, like every other Thursday, I waited in my car whilst waiting for my little brother to finish his tuition that took place in a building nearby. We always parked in the same place – which was a rather rural and under-constructed part of town; Jakarta at its realest.

Today, unlike every other Thursday, I took a moment and looked outside of my car window. And I don’t mean a simple glance before immediately glancing back at my phone, which was something I always did. I mean, I watched everything that was going on during the hour. There were many kids, most of whom, I assume, were just coming back from school. Some were just walking around in their pyjamas without a care in the world. Others were on their bikes, chatting and giggling about. At one point, there were these two girls wandering around, singing songs and admiring what to us would be classified as boring, dull and uninteresting leaves, but to them was something so precious.

I guess what I’m trying to get across with this post is that we should be grateful for what we have. These children don’t have much but they manage to find something to be happy about so easily. They aren’t complaining, so why should we be?

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Summarecon, Jakarta

“Home is where the heart is.”
Pliny the Elder
[In response to the Weekly Photo Challenge: local]
[Featured image taken from Pinterest]

We Do Complicated

Based on a true story.

Senior year. I was the new girl and you were the music kid. You were kind enough to show me around school and become the first ever familiar face in a completely new environment. We didn’t have any of the same classes except for music – something you were extremely passionate about, which I noticed almost immediately. Whenever I came to class and the teachers were yet to show up, you’d be on the keyboard playing whatever while everyone else danced and just had fun. Because that’s what you do. You do you and that’s fun. You made it really easy to be your friend, which wasn’t what you wanted (apparently). But you let the year go on anyway without a hint.

Fast forward to our last couple of days of high school: you asked to hang out for the last time before you had to leave the country, and we did. We had dinner and watched a movie… kind of like a date but kind of not. I still saw you as a friend. The night was coming to an end and that’s when you told me everything. How you felt about me and how you wished you could’ve told me sooner. I was silent and things got a little awkward. You kissed me on the cheek and said goodbye.

Fast forward to you being on the other side of the world: you stopped messaging me constantly. We’d leave each other messages here and there but we just weren’t as close as we used to be. The thing was is I miss you. In a weird way. In a more-than-a-friend sort of way. In a I-think-I-like-you kind of way. And I don’t think you care about me anymore. At least that’s what you’re telling me, ironically, through your lack of words.

I’m more confused than ever. Do I like you for you, or for the you who had a thing for me? Do you still think about me? Should I reach out to you or would that just stop you from living your new life in a new place full of new faces? It’s crazy how much things can change. How could we go from talking every single day to not talking at all? Things probably don’t have to be this complicated but they are. Because that’s what we do. We do complicated and that fucking sucks.


“Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.”
Confucius
[In response to the Daily Prompts: confused and complicated]

[Featured image taken from Pinterest]

Just a Thought

Social anxiety is a buzzkill. It’s a buzzkill that attacks at any moment of the day for whatever reason possible. Method of attack? The little voices in my head. I could be walking down the street with a coffee in my hand paired with the biggest smile on my face and they would still manage to come up with the longest list of things for me to be worried about – a list I wouldn’t have possibly thought of on my own, so thanks for that. I would hear things like…

“They’re looking at you; they’re laughing at you.”

“They don’t really want to be around you – they’re just trying to be nice.”

“You don’t matter.”

Usually I wouldn’t ever question those voices. I would just accept the fact that maybe something really was wrong with me. But from time to time, thankfully, the good voices would make an appearance in my head and they’d tell me…

“Hey, 

Maybe they aren’t laughing at you.

Maybe they really do want to get to know you.

And you definitely matter.

Just a thought.”


“Monsters don’t sleep under your bed. They live in your head.”
Unknown
[In response to the Daily Prompt: maybe]

[Featured image taken from Pinterest]

I’m Creating Again

Because I haven’t really written much about myself on this blog, I’ll tell you one thing about myself. I enjoy art. Drawing, painting, colouring, using pastels – anything really. Art was my favourite subject in school and I used to create a new piece of artwork every day when I got home. Art Attack was my favourite show on TV and I would always try to recreate whatever that guy on the show had made that day. I let art go when I reached high school because life got in the way and I was way too focused on my studies. But fortunately for me, I’ve graduated high school and I’ve got time on my hands. So, I’ve been getting back into it. I still need to brush up on my art skills but at least I’m creating again!

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Medium used: soft pastels & a black biro

“Creativity is contagious. Pass it on.”
Albert Einstein
[In response to the Daily Prompt: painting]
Posted in Art

The Perfect Romance

He picked me up at 8 that night and we went to the park. No plans, just us. He laid out a blanket and I poured the wine. He told me about the dream he had the night before and I told him mine. I loved the way he laughed at my terrible jokes and then told me his own to make me laugh harder. We talked for hours and hours under the stars. For a moment, we were alone on this earth. Nothing mattered. Nothing but him. Even in silence, so much was said. There was an intensity every time he put his hand in mine. An innocence every time he kissed my cheek. It was the perfect romance. The sort of romance you crave but hardly find.


 “You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”
Dr. Seuss
[In response to the Daily Prompt: crave]
[Featured image taken from Pinterest]

This One Was Different

This one was different.
He paid attention to every single word and
not once did he take his eyes off mine.
His eyes glistened a sparkling blue.
I was drawn in by him.
Every movement he made.
Every breath he took…
I noticed everything.
And he noticed me.
Everything about him was comfortable.
I felt right with him and every second spent with him was perfect.
I watched as he took a sip of his coffee and licked the foam off of his lip.
He caught me staring at him and he laughed.
What?
I quickly looked away, embarrassed.
Nothing, I chuckled.
Sorry.

But I wasn’t..

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Mrs. S, Perth

“I don’t want to miss a thing.”
Aerosmith
[In response to the Daily Prompt: sorry]

[Featured image taken from Pinterest]

Tomorrow

Today, I woke up to the sound of
raindrops knocking on my window.
I looked outside and there was not
a single soul in sight.
Nothing disturbed nature’s peace – only nature itself.
And even then,
it was a peaceful disturbance;
a necessary disturbance;
dramatic in the least dramatic way possible.
I can only imagine what tomorrow will bring.
Perhaps I will meet the colours of the rainbow…
All seven of them!

Leederville, Perth

“Never lose hope. Stay strong, you never know what tomorrow brings.”
Magith Noohukhan
[In response to the Daily Prompt: dramatic]

[Featured image taken from Pinterest]